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Yes, yes, I know I am an angry complain queen. But i know you like angry people.

about me
Never the girl-next-door,I carry this normal plain and boring look wherever I go. The laziness in me is a bug, it eats away my motivation to dress up like a sophisticated queen. My hatred for shopping is undeniable, I hate that turn-off feeling when I have to force myself to not buy something i really like because of the ugly price tag. Although i am not an angel, I am thankful that I blend in like a chamelon because nobody is an angel.

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I hate egg yolks. The high cholesterol thing is just an excuse, i just hate the taste, period. My affection for dogs on a scale of 0 to 10, is 0. The same goes to self-righteous dentists who torture poor people like me.



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Saturday, April 2, 2011 @ 5:45 PM
Just when I thought my weekends will be completely relaxing after mugging continuously from mon-thurs for the PW draft, it got from bad to worse with the excruciating pain-I would rather die 3000 times than suffer that again, or ever.

It was a completely stupid decision to remove all 4 teeth at one go, the pain is so bad that no amounts of panadol can ease it even relatively. I am still bleeding up till now, and my pillow was wet with blood last night because there was no way to control it from dripping down except swallowing the blood. I gave up swallowing because every gulp tasted disgusting, like the combination of metal, salt, and shit.

So I went back to the dentist today again, for him to put on the metal wires and the rubber that pulls my teeth to it's supposed position. My hand itch from chipping the rubber off, it's hurts even more than plucking out 4 teeth at one go. Yes, take that, it is that painful.

I can't believe that I subjected myself to so much pain. Having straightened teeth is always an incentive to me, something that I never require or crave for badly in my entire life. I hate myself for succumbing under my mother's pressure, and I hate myself for not standing strong enough.

Why hurt yourself for beauty that is so insignificant? It's never worth it, to the point that I think people who put on braces willingly has a fried brain.
Maybe I am wrong, because different people look at things with different perspectives, and they gauge what's important and what's not very subjectively.

But I'm so tired now. So tired of torturing myself for something so unnecessary and useless. So tired of trying to cry to wash off all the pain. So tired of trying to find encouragement from people around but get none of them. So tired of entering the clinic I feel compelled to burn everyday, and then leave the room with more pain.

I feel so much like dying now, and the longest ruler will never be able to measure how much I hate my mother for this.
If you make me choose between pain or death, I'll choose the 2nd option with dignity.

Sorry for saying something so negative, but for now, I hope I can close my eyes and never wake up. By then I will be in heaven, skipping on the fluff clouds with joy and relaxation, and most importantly, I'll be pain-free.
Yes I am a loser.