Nowadays i find myself more reliant on Facebook, where i do short blogging. This blog becomes more and more distant to me as the days goes on, because i feel horrible to have a long typing session when both of my shoulders hurt this much.

And yes, it's hurting like hell now.

But nonetheless, i will still come, because some things are just worth a long typing session, pain or no pain!

Now I'm reading the lost symbol and i've forgotten all about studying. Studying makes me extra irritated when i don't understand A.C generator and D.C. motor.  So I just gave up.

Alright, anyway, i just wanna tell you this now: If you desperately need someone to share a secret with, the last person you should ever go to is your cousin. Especially those cousins that are classified under mummy girls, or boys.

Nothing can be more awkward than that, because i've tried it and i had enough. It is impossible to treat your mummy cousins like a friend. Because whatever they hear, they go home and spill out all to their mummy. Please be reminded that their mummy is your aunt, and their mummy WILL spill out everything you said to YOUR MUMMY when they get connected is whatsoever way.

Once my cousin started asking me why i feel so sad, and i just told her i screwed up my EL O level oral and i was crying. I can't believe she went to tell her mother THAT. Her mother called and i answered the phone, and you can expect one awkward talking session. She started comforting me as if i am diagnosed with some weird disease, and all i hoped was her to stop her crap and leave me alone. As if that wasn't bad enough, my mother answered the phone and she too started talking to her about my problems in my face, blowing my sadness into gigantic proportions.

The last thing i need after a hit in the EL oral exams was the whole world to know about my problems.

AND although i know this is never a big thing, i still can't help feeling betrayed. I didn't want anyone to start worrying for me, especially my mother. I only told her that because she asked. I'm even angrier at myself for my stupidity, because this is NOT the first time she amplify my thoughts and feelings this way. I just forget about it at that point of time.

Alright, whatever, i'm going to bath.