Shit me shit me shit me.
I utterly destroyed my oral. The reading was horrible. i was reading too fast and my voice was hoarse. i doubt he even understands what i am reading. and midway i requested to drink water.
picture was horrible? what is it about? global strides, global minds. what the hell is it? In the end i said global warming, what the fuck. and please, what makes you laugh? i don't know! I gave a one sentence reply.
When i finished, i already feel like crap and muneerraaaaaa have to go all the way to stab me in the lungs. She said i was not supposed to walk behind the examiners, and that the examiners have complaint. Like how the hell i know? I forget to take my bag so i went to take it with the shortest route. Isn't that even like common sense or something? And when i said i didn't know, she was like," Don't tell me you don't know. you have went through the mother tongue oral exam." Yes i have went through the MT oral exam, but i wasn't even told i cannot walk behind examiners. There wasn't even specific instructions. but when i walked behind, i saw an 8, so i guess that's my point for conversation. Passed.

So i pretty much screwed my life out. Great.
Liting is so lucky, the examiner said " i cannot tell you your marks but you are the best so far."
See? how lucky?

And me? ARGH, i just hope i pass this stupid thing. Everybody have done so well and I... I just feel like some sort of stupid shit who fails in everything i do. Screw chem test, screw math test, screw oral.I feel like I'm so useless, and suddenly i just hope I can just die. Like disappear from this world without any trace. Losers like me waste food supply and perhaps if i give my share of food to somebody else in africa, he may be able to contribute to the world and do better than me. Change a loser to a winner, what a good deal.